You ARE the best version of yourself, here and now.
So why doesn’t your life feel like it?
Almost everything written about becoming a better version of yourself rests on a premise nobody examines: that the version standing here is not good enough yet.
I spent forty years inside that premise. Seminars, trainings, coaching, a library of books. Then one morning I said the sentence above to a mirror, and the mirror agreed with me, which was considerably worse.
What I write now starts from the other end. Not how to become someone better, but why a life that looks right from the outside does not always feel like yours from the inside, and why the thing that needs altering may not be you.
The Method
A free document, complete, nothing held back. It describes how I use a journal and an AI partner to look at the things I would rather not: nine steps, and the prompts I actually use. I am not a psychologist and this is not therapy. It is two years of most mornings, written down. No sign-up, no email sequence, no follow-up call.
More Of This
The Method describes the practice. This walks it, twenty days at a time, one day a page. A morning page, a second document, and a conversation with an AI partner that is told in writing not to flatter you, not to diagnose you, and to stop when you say stop. Four weeks, with two days off in each. Not every day finds something, and the guide says so.
What you write stays on your own machine. I never see any of it.
One document, all twenty days, thirty-nine euro once. No subscription, nothing to join.
From 30 October. If you want to know when it is there, tell me and I will write to you once.
One essay every Tuesday
Until 29 December. About what gets in the way, and the odd business of being sixty-eight and beginning something.
Who is writing this
I trained as a civil engineer and spent my first year on waterways and canals. I moved into insurance, then into IT as a CIO, and in 2001 became CEO of a group of sixteen hundred people, which I led for fourteen years and through two financial crises. I have been a certified executive coach since 2008.
I started working with AI in April 2022, some months before the rest of the world began paying attention, and a journal in April 2024, which I have written in nearly every day since. A few months in came a shallow but lasting encounter with Jung’s Shadow work, and that turned the journal into something else. More than four hundred sessions later, that practice is what The Method describes.
Between 2023 and 2025 this site carried what I was writing then, about AI and leadership, in a language I would not use now. Those pieces are still where they were. The old writing
If something here landed, write to me. I read everything.